The hsg

.......is all clear. That was painful. The nurses were awesome. So now we wait for Wed to see what the re suggests to do. I will write more later.

Now what?

I got the paperwork for the fertility clinic to fill before our appt on Wed. There is a his and hers packet. Its kinda funny because we know Chris doesn't have any sperm because of his vasectomy. The paperwork is asking questions as if we don't know that I am the problem. It has questions on his about how many times he has gotten anyone pregnant. I always know about the two but I forget about the first one from when he was in high school. I didn't realize it bothered him. The girl had an abortion. I figured it out and the child would be turning 18 this year. I guess sometimes some people, myself included, realize that it affects the male partner in that situation.

Well I go in for the hsg at 8am. I am not looking forward to it at all. I hope nothing is wrong. I am always afraid that there is something very wrong.

Just Another day

Today is just another day of crap. I have really wanted to have something positive to put in here but it doesn't seem like anything is going to go that way. Tomorrow I go to the dr to figure out our next game plan for ttc. I am ready to move forward, I think. I have a hard time dealing with alot of things and have even been crying at work. Not cool. I am just getting too much crap at once. Chris bought me a beautiful bouquet of flowers. I should take a picture of it. It is his birthday tomorrow and I haven't even gotten anything for his birthday. I am so bad.

I've been tagged

Thank you Shari at http://magicalcuriosity.blogspot.com/ for tagging me.

The Rules:1) Link to the person that tagged you.
2) Post the rules on your blog.
3) Share six non-important things/habits/quirks about yourself.
4) Tag at least three people at the end of your post and link to their blogs.
5) Let each person know they have been tagged by leaving a comment on their blog.
6) Let the fun begin!

The FACTS

1.) I was severly picked on as a kid, so I don't trust people very easily, especially females. BUT the women from NW have shown me there is some good people. 2 of the girls that would pick on me have apologized in the last year.

2.) I collect rose and pig figurines or anything to do with either. I would own a pig but farm animals are illegal in the city.

3.) I hate living in a city even one as small as this one. I would prefer some land in the mountains.

4.) I am obsessive compulsive about brushing my teeth. I have a toothbrush in my car, at my job and several in the house. I have actually been told to stop brushing so much.

5.) I generally sleep only 3 or 4 hours a night. The rest of the night I lay there worrying or thinking too much.

6.) I have ocd when it comes to folding and hanging clothes. Chris always does them the wrong way to get me pissed off. He thinks it is funny.

So I don't know many bloggers and two of the people I know have already been tagged so I tag
Michelle http://michellespath.blogspot.com/
Cindy http://www.bunchnbunch.blogspot.com/

On the ttc front, this one was a bust. AF showed her ugly face.

2 more days

Can I wait two more days before I test again? I haven't been posting because I have been wanting write something positive or uplifting. I want to quit complaining. Work is still the same, no surprise. So what should I write about? I do nothing but work and things around the house. I don't go out to hang out with anyone. First of all, I am not the most trusting of people. So I can count the people I call friends on one hand. Bad thing is none of them live around here. Therefore there isn't anyone that I want to hang out with. I need to learn to how to do other things on here. I got tagged by Shari and I don't know how to link on the post. Smart not!! I also want to know how to link other blogs onto my page like everyone else. I guess I need to play around on this more. Maybe someone can bgive me some hints on how to do that????

Just quick note

Yestarday I had spotting but none today. I am starting to get my hopes up really high for this cycle. I just hope it is it!! I don't want to let everyone down. So many people think this one is it too, especially my parents and Mike. Good luck to everyone in the tww and Tammy hun you are always in my thoughts!

Fed up!

Most of you may know that I live with my parents because of when dad was diagnosed with cancer. He has been taken off chemo so I really don't need to stay here for the "in case" for my mom. The thing is my mother is and alcholic and today I just got really mad and started yelling at her. She starting drinking before noon today and started bugging the crap out of my son. He started ignoring her and she yelled at him and told him to go to his room. Really he didn't do anything wrong. But I don't know how much longer I can deal with this. Okay I am done venting.

On the ttc note , the insems went well and I really happy with the timing. I am not temping this time because I would really stress myself out obsessing. Mike is really a gem. Everytime I talk to him now he asks me if I am pregnant. He keeps saying he sent a really special batch this time. He is so funny.

Updating

Sorry I haven't written in awhile. When I got back to work from vacation my store was a complete disaster area. I could not believe my entire team let me down the way the did. I not only had to fix alot of things but I had to write almost everyone up.

On a better note, tomorrow is insem day!! I am so excited. Mike is so great. He called this morning and told me my baby girl is in the mail. How cute, it really put a smile on my face.