Tuesday, October 30, 2007

Just another day

Thank you for the comments and support ladies. Another 13 hour day of work, lucky me. I am ready for vacation, but who knows when that will be. Chris is going to try to get a new job. He may work out of town most of the week. The insurance is better and the pay is twice what he makes now. That would take alot of stress off me. Since we have been married I have been the one who works consitantly and makes the most money. So I have always paid all the bills. I am so ready for him to take over and be the "man of the house" for once.

I talked to my best friend today and I really wished he lived closer. I can't do much to help him from here and that upsets me. He knows how much I care and that I want to help but I can't. He does so much to cheer me up, I just wish I could do more for him. I am really looking forward to seeing him in Feb.

Good luck to all still TTC, you are all in my thoughts and prayers.

Monday, October 29, 2007

Trying to find the new plan

Well first of all I have to say stress may be the biggest factor in me not getting pregnant. I have been working 85 hours a week and was ready to quit today. I finally got some time away from my store and of course it is because I am sick. Not to mention everything else that is going on. My parents have been wonderfully supportive. My dad brought me flowers to work which really helped the other day. My best friend is wonderful too. No matter what is going on he finds away to cheer me up. Now my husband on the other hand is very stand offish. It is driving me mad. I really need to discuss things with him and he doesn't want me to get upset. So instead of helping me through it he leaves me to dwell on it. Not the best thing for me right now.

So on my own I am trying to find my plan. I am waiting until probably Feb to try again. In the meantime I am going to try to get an HSG done to make sure everything is clear. Also I think I am going to take vacation in Feb to be with my donor around O time. This will save on shipping and give me some time to relax away from everyone else that is bringing me down. Well that is start of my plan.j

Monday, October 8, 2007


Sorry I haven't posted in awhile. Things have been very hectic and so negative. I don't want to go into details because if I write it down then I have to think about it more. If I think about it more I get depressed.

On another note.....we took the kids to the mountains last weekend and we went mining!! It was very fun and educational for the kids. It was also informing for me. I really want to move to the mountains and away from the city. I am going to what we have to do to move. It won't be just my husband and kids but also my parents and perhaps even my sister and her kids. But maybe in a year or two.