Saturday, December 22, 2007


Really why is so hard for me to eat. I decided to start jornaling my eating habits to try to get better well here is today--

1 bowl of Quaker Multigrain hot cereal 120 calories
no lunch
1 plate of pasta with a little alfredo sauce worst case 500 calories
2 cookies
4 bottles of water

That is all I have eaten today. I am not hungry nor do I want to eat. I really need to work harder. Bad thing is that is better than yestarday. My weight 200 lbs, height 6ft, mood okay, headache none, job found none. I go back to work on the 28th.

On a different note, I cannot wait until Christmas. We drew names for the adults in the family for gifts this year and my mom told me she got Chris. She told today what she got. Chris likes and used to go to The Rocky Horror Picture Shows. Well she got him the dvd. Since I am with him I asked my dad to go to the nearest(yes I really asked him this) sex shop and get me and outfit to fit Chris to go with the dvd, plus a feather duster. I am going to give him the outfit first then he gets the dvd. Oh I cannot wait this will be funny!!! I have also finished shopping for the kids but have not wrapped a single thing so you know what I will be doing Christmas Eve!


twondra said...

Awww,'ll get there. The fact that you know you need to eat more is a big step. Just don't give up! Have a great Christmas and RELAX!! :)

RainbowMomma said...

LOLOLOL! It's nice to know you and your dad have that kind of relationship. Me and mine do not. I could never ask my dad that! LOL! But it sounds not only fun, but sexy and hilarious.

Lyndsey, your body will do a good job of losing weight if you give it enough calories. Since you have dealt with anorexia in the past, you really really need to make sure you are giving your body enough fuel. You don't want to lose muscle because you're not eating enough for your body. How did you deal with this in the past? Did you go to therapy? It sounds like a good way to catch yourself before it gets out of hand. (I am going weekly right now.) Ever think of Weight Watchers? (I do it online.)

Anyway, I'm thinking of you and I don't want to sound like a broken record, but I want to make sure you're doing yourself justice. We care about you. I hope you ahve a wonderful Christmas. Like Tammy said, don't give up (and don't give in.) Be good to yourself!

RainbowMomma said...

Lyndsey, I hope your holidays went well and the Rocky Horror thing went off okay!

RainbowMomma said...

Lyndsey, Lyndsey, where are you?