2 weeks are almost up

and I haven't tested yet. I was going to test but my mom thinks I should wait a couple more days. Is she for real? I can't promise I will wait I will try though. Chris really thinks it worked this time though. One of our deals were that I would grow my long if we used DS. Well I really don't like my hair long at all. It has made it to my shoulders. Thanks for reading guys. I know it can be boring. I have been told I need to open up more(by a therapist). I will try more. I did write a long post a couple of days ago and erased it, lol.

Oh great

So two IUI's done. My timing is definately different this time. I hope it works. I went by cervix position not by opk's.

Okay I have gotten into poison ivy. Yeh and it itches bad. Plus blisters oh great.

Surprise!

As some of you know I have been having trouble with depression. I had some dr appts on Fri and we are still no where as far as I can tell. Anyways we had put ttc on hold because of finances. Both of our insurances do not cover anything so we would need $4000. to go to the next step with fertility dr. Chris and I had discussed trying at home again but that was all we did. Well Friday evening Chris ordered for Wed without me. He even had to pick out another donor because the ones we had tried before were not available. So I guess we are trying this month after all. I am not even sure which donor he picked. Not like it matters.

I want to run away

Sorry for those who care I am having a hard time dealing with depression at the moment. I don't want to talk to anyone see anyone or do anything. You are all in my thoughts.

Sorry

Sorry I haven't been around. I will update later. Right now I am trying to catch up on all of you.

Very Upset

No adoption. Apparently the guy that works for me was talking to me about it when his wife does not want to give away her baby. I don't blame her at all I wouldn't either. But what an a$$ that works for knowing how much I want a baby. Not to mention the crap he is doing to his wife. I found out his girlfriend is pregnant by him and she is keeping the baby. BUT he told his wife that if she keeps the baby he is leaving her. Not to mention some other bull that I found out about him. Now he doesn't know that I have talked to his wife because he "forbid" her to come to the store. I guess he was afraid I would find everything out. But I promised her I wouldn't say anything because I don't know what he will do to her. I can't do anything to him at work because it is not job related. I am extremely hurt. But I knew something wasn't quite right.

On the TTC front I had cd3 labs done and on cd9 I have to go in for a sonohysterogram. So I may be out this month.

Today

OK so I am a little confused on what to do. For adoption we need to work on getting a home study and find out how much. I am not putting this on the nw chatroom because I don't want everyone to know. Only a few of you read my blog so. I saw the ultrasound pics of the baby today and everything looks perfect! She is due around Sept 1st. Chris still wants to aggressive with me and wait on adoption. I don't want to get my hopes up because something just bothers me on the whole situation..
Cindy I hope you feel better soon, Tammy I have my fingers crossed for you, Shari you are in my thoughts and Michelle I hope you adjust to the time zone soon.