Well this is my life

Sorry I haven't posted in a long time but things have been hectic to say the least. My dad got a virus last week which is always worse because of his chemo for cancer. It really scared me this time. It was the sickest he has been in a long time and he looked really bad.
Then there is my sister. She and her long time live in boyfriend have been fighting. I don't mean verbal either. He hyperextended her thumb and bit her several times. I had to go to court with her for the restraining order and have been helping her move her stuff into storage.
Now work, how can older(over 60) men act like stupid teen girls with gossip. I am so over stupid drama. My asst mgr who is an older man told my boss that I am never at work and I don't do anything. UUhhHH excuse me but I work 70 plus hours a week mostly because he doesn't do his part as an asst. But that is okay because now I will make his life hell because I will hold him to his job.
I am so over it all. If this cycle doesn't work then I am not trying for a few months I need a break from everything. I am so emotionally and physically drained. When people tell me it can only get better I ask them when??? I have been waiting long enough for something to go my way.

When is enough, enough??

Yestarday I was just beside myself with this last cycle not working. Chris bought me a dozen roses and I love them. But I have had about 5 mins to talk to him the last two days. I want to talk to him in person for what we are going to do the this cycle. So I talked to my best friend(my donor) for about an hour last night and he also called me this morning. He is a great best friend. I just wished he didn't move to Florida. I feel completely defeated. I don't know what to do.

Tired

Today I am extremely tired. I had a three day weekend which I normally never do but thought it would be nice and today was the first day back. It's not like I didn't get enough sleep I was asleep by around 8pm. At least that is what my son said. I have no energy at all I just want to sleep. I took a hpt this am and it was negative. It is still early. I just want to know because if I am tired because of that then I won't complain but if not then it is back to the dr's for tests. I am a veg so my dr always test my b levels and other things because of family history of other medicals problems.

This past weekend we had all the kids. That is why I took the extra day, to spend time with them. We took them to Nags Head and went swimming. I got knocked over the first time I went out into the water pretty badly so once I got back to shore I did NOT go back in. The kids and Chris had a great time and that is what matters.

Learning about myself

I realized recently I really don't talk alot. I even asked my best friend and he said that is something he has just gotten used too. What???? I always say something that is short and too the int nothing frivolous. Mike says he thinks it is because of my mom. She can talk you ear off about nothing. It would make sense, I listen alot to what others say and stew on it for awhile. Perhaps I just need to come out of my shell( at age 31??)?? See now I have nothing else to say about it.
On the ttc note. It is 5dpo and my boobs hurt already. It is too early so what is going on.

Another day......

It's sunday and I am working, and BORED!!!! We should be closed on Sunday! Well since I am bored and have nothing to do, my mind is wandering. Did this one work????? Oh the wait is killing me...........agh!

The start.....

Alright I am now jumping on the band wagon of blogging. I don't want to put on my myspace page because I don't everyone knowing about my TTC method. I started the TWW again as of Friday. I am really excited about this try. I am truly happy with my choice of donor too. I was a little worried for awhile but I am happy with it. So here is to writing my personal feelings for the world to see.