PIctures of projects

Not much to write about so I am just going to show some things I have done lately.

This is after I had started cutting down a crab apple tree. I didn't get many photos and they were taken with my phone.

What's the juice?

Okay I don't eat right if I eat at all. So last week I bought a juicer. Yes I bought it last week and just used it tonight. So I started off simple with something I love, apple juice made from granny smith apples. So mad some juice for work tomorrow. So what did I make? Any guess? Really no guess. Well carrot and celery. It was simple and what I had. I have tons of recipes from several books so I will go shopping to make some more veggies and fruit juices. Any suggestions welcomed.

As for projects nothing today. I just didn't have time. With making juice, cleaning the juicer folding laundry.

Sunday

First of all thank you Tammy for your comment. I know not many people read this but I am going to start writing alot more. More for me than anything else. Chris has been in Oregon since Feb. so I have been doing everything on my own, including getting the last bfn news. I have cut down a crab apple tree and other jobs. I am doing more projects around the house that I am going to document. It has been nice seeing things done.

I am still going to try for ivf. I just need to find a way to get the money up. I want so much to carry my baby, that I am not going to give up for anyone. I have already put some money away because if Chris is is working he can't spend any money. So I just need to work on something to get more.

I must go now and do some plumbing, the sink is leaking. Lets see how I can mess this up!!!

Well..

To clarify on my post since someone decided to leave a comment. I want a child with all my heart, don't care how. I have and am looking into adoption as well as the ivf. There is some issues with adoption. But we may still do adoption even if we go through ivf.

ivf

I went for a consultation for ivf today and boy am I overwhelmed. Now how am I suppose to come up with that kind of money? I have a friend who has been through with not so good results. So is it worth trying?

runaway returning?

So I ran away from everything and everyone. I am still far away. I have still been ttcing, just don't go on any boards because I can not take any positives when I continue to get negatives. we are still going to ttc but now are working on adoption, even an older child. I have so much love to give and it seems like I don't have enough people to show. I keep stealing my nieces and nephews from my sister as much as I possibly can. I am working on buying the house across the street from my parents. I still live with my parents because of my mother, so the house across the street would be perfect and I could have more kids! I hope everyone is okay.

Time heals...

nothing. The saying time heals all wounds is not really true. I have been talking to my first since the last post and there is still alot there. We figured out that my parents split us up. And that I never got over him. We have spent so much time talking that his wife is got upset. Here is the thing we are an ocean apart. He is in England and here I am stateside. I have done alot of self discovery lately. I am not going to ttc for awhile. Not until decide what to do about the silence between me and Chris. I thought it was me but I have tried alot with him lately and I don't think it is me. So until I figure what would be best for me and my son, there will be no ttc. I was sad about it but I think in the long run it will be for the better. I may end up being a smbc. Who knows. What I do know is that things need to change around here. I am working on moving out of this house with my parents. This means slowly putting the idea into their heads like it is their idea. They really don't want me and my son to move but I think it will be better because sometimes they treat me like a teenager. Anyways I am saving for a vacation to England to visit family. Good luck to all of you that are still ttc.