I want to run away

Sorry for those who care I am having a hard time dealing with depression at the moment. I don't want to talk to anyone see anyone or do anything. You are all in my thoughts.

Sorry

Sorry I haven't been around. I will update later. Right now I am trying to catch up on all of you.

Very Upset

No adoption. Apparently the guy that works for me was talking to me about it when his wife does not want to give away her baby. I don't blame her at all I wouldn't either. But what an a$$ that works for knowing how much I want a baby. Not to mention the crap he is doing to his wife. I found out his girlfriend is pregnant by him and she is keeping the baby. BUT he told his wife that if she keeps the baby he is leaving her. Not to mention some other bull that I found out about him. Now he doesn't know that I have talked to his wife because he "forbid" her to come to the store. I guess he was afraid I would find everything out. But I promised her I wouldn't say anything because I don't know what he will do to her. I can't do anything to him at work because it is not job related. I am extremely hurt. But I knew something wasn't quite right.

On the TTC front I had cd3 labs done and on cd9 I have to go in for a sonohysterogram. So I may be out this month.

Today

OK so I am a little confused on what to do. For adoption we need to work on getting a home study and find out how much. I am not putting this on the nw chatroom because I don't want everyone to know. Only a few of you read my blog so. I saw the ultrasound pics of the baby today and everything looks perfect! She is due around Sept 1st. Chris still wants to aggressive with me and wait on adoption. I don't want to get my hopes up because something just bothers me on the whole situation..
Cindy I hope you feel better soon, Tammy I have my fingers crossed for you, Shari you are in my thoughts and Michelle I hope you adjust to the time zone soon.

Adoption?

The couple came to me again about adopting their unborn child. we are seriously considering, even if I am pregnant. The child will need a family that can take care of it. We will be able to. I just need to look into fees and laws. We are trying to look for a bigger place so we can do this. "S" is 3 and half months along. They don't have a place to live now with the kids they have. They have an emergency meeting with social services. I truly hope it goes well. I will keep everyone updated on this.

On the TTC front, no real symptons. I am taking progestogen so even if I did I would trust it.

What fun!

We had all the kids this weekend. We took them bowling. I haven't been bowling for a very, very long time! It was hilarious! None of us got over 100. We had so much fun.

Now for the TWW

The IUIs are done. I start the progestogen today, 3 a day. I am really happy with the timing. The first IUI went extremely well but the second one a little tough because my cervix had started to close. The RE joked about twins because of the number of follies.